sedated nightmare

i sing the dying swan's song
listening to the mantra of sobbing souls
a wretched soul, i saw one that is tragically beautiful
the rythym of the mantra slows down
quieting the spirits as they attend to a corpse
then in a sharp and hopeless cry
the scream their dirge
the soul sing to the dying
bloody tears show their misery
and i saw myself, my body
it was out there, lying inside my morbid bed
as a priest stands beside my body
chanting the rites of the dead
int he quiet dawn of my sedated nightmare...

i find...

There is blindness and death
I am surrounded by an ancient bitterness
I'm jagged in ignorance and hypocrisy
Not to be loved and hoped for
I have drained all vitality
Every single drop of life from my core
That i may never feel again, that i may keep my soul from being lost
Once more in the great abyss
Fed by fear, abandoned by faith
CLouded in pain, as i shed my blood for you
You spare me of words of hatred,sorrow and anarchy
You scribble me on your journals
Of things that has touched and torn your heart
The pain in my soul's heart rains upon me
Tormenting me like devil's angels do
And in the blinding light of darkness
i find retribution..