THIS CAN'T HIDE

This black eyeliner and mascarra
Can't hide the sorrow and tears on my eyes
This lipgloss can't stop my lips to say
The words i want to say
This hair can't hide my face from the crowd
This smile can't hide the sadness i feel
Tis hoodie can't make me comfortable
This skinny jeans can't hide the wekness on my legs and knees when i stand
This sneakers can't hide the pain on my feet when i walk
This messenger bag can't hide my secrets forever
This glasses can't hide the visions when i see you
This piercings can't hide the hole in my heart
Because my heart is totally broken and tortured
By your unforbibben love
And this black nail polish can't hide the darkness that fills my life!

DEAR DIARY

I can't express my feelings when i'm mad
Because i have no someone to talk to
i have no friends here by my side
They are too far from me
All the hate inside me gets bigger and bigger
And i feel like someday it will burst out into a massive explosion
But now i'm still keeping it inside waitong to come out
I'm suffering because i feel like my chest is so heavy
Because i can't let go of my emotions
It feels like i can't breathe and it feels like i'm dying
Writing on my journal is a big relief
With the help of this paper and pen
I can now express myself
i can say what i want to say
No one can't stop me
This diary is my bestfriend
It can keep my secrets
This diary is the one who understands me and comforts me
this diary knows a lot about me
i love you my dear diary

DEATH CALL

ALone in my room, i hear this strange sound again
And the words picture to my mind
DIE...DIE....DIE...DIE....DIE
Death is calling me again
This sweet evil sound whisper to my ears
and it serenades me,i love to listen to it
And i feel like someone is controlling me
To get that razor blade on my closet
Cut..Slice...and Bleed to death..
But when i open my eyes, i see the light again
And one question i'm still asking again and again
Why am i still here??
Death calls me but death let me escape again?
That'z crazy!Death is playing games with me
How could i win?
When this game will be over?

PAIN

Here i am again,sitting on a dark corner
Thinking if i could see the light again
Hoping for the sun to shne on me again
To wash out all the worries and pain inside me
Can you find me a medicine for this ache?
I think you can't!
Because this pain cuts me so deep
It barely smash me into tiny pieces
There would never be a cure for this great pain i feel
When this pain starts to attack me again
I feel like im giving up, i feel numb
I'm so weak and now i cry
But this tears is not enough to release all the pain i feel
Or even this razor blades can't let go of this pain
As i see my blood runs ot from my wrist
I can see how great is my pain
That makes me so happy
So i cut myself deeper and deeper
Thinking that if my blood runs out my pain would end!

DEADLY

Nothing change in this world
Even if there are many stupid leaders placed
They are making those fucking laws and that's useless
That's why people are magry to the government
Because our government didn't know what we want
They don't understand us,they are selfish
There are many evils around us even on our side
And i can smell the death on your flesh
Creeping in,trapped w/in the twisting fingers of fear
ican see those eyes burning on fire because of anger
And i can see you there poison in the air
That harm many people and cause them to death
And i wanna attack,i wanna tear your heart
ANd leave blood on your back and vomit the word of agony
And truth and hate god's our way
ALong to the slap of a belt across my back
To the exceptance of death and blind came to war
And giving sleep of depression
The sweet hallucination of savge meaningless agression
The taste of your blood is at the tip of my finger
I can't barely taste that keeps me drowsy
Many evils of today are in masquerade
Feeding my disease of river of plagues
I need something to remind me on still
Sining the pain is important the words matter
Healing is possible but i'm not alone
To these troubles,serial killers
Routinely capture attention of the public
Because of the sensationalistic nature of crimes
Like a man who killed his family
After reading a bible one night!

WHY DAD?WHY MOM?

Hey dad! why are you always angry to me?
did i do something wrong?something bad?
Maybe that's yor fault why i did that
You always blame me to your own mistake
Did you know that i'm trying to get you proud of me?
I'm working hard for it, ut you just can't see it
You only see good things to my sisters
And you didn't give me just a little attention of yours

Hey mom! everyday you're angry to me
You always shout out loud at me and slap me on my face
What the hell i've done to you?
Did you ever ask youself how painful that is?
You're such an idiot
Because you didn't try to undeerstand me
You contradict all things i want to do
You're like dad, you only think of my sister's,but not me.
I can't feel your love anymore
Both of you make me feel bad,left-out
And think that i'm not important anymore
That force me to do such things that i shouldn't

I know i'm wrong but i'm sorry
Maybe i just misunderstood you
But i want you to say sorry too
Because you didn't try to understand me
I'm begging you for my freedom
Please let me go of this chains
Let me see the world and let me see
What's happening around me!

HER

I'm a loner, always forgotten
Being left-out, nobody cares
And hated by everybody
I never found a true friend and true love
Tears never stop falling from my eyes
Sadness never leaves me
And death always calling me
Darkness fills my entire life
They always blame me like i didn't do something right
I'm fighting my own fights w/o a help
Because nobody would like to help
I'm just a kid w/ body fit clothes
Names of bands and qoutes printed on my shirt
Wearing a hoodie and black eyeliner,mascarra
Wearing sneakers w/ shaggy hair
Walking alone in the streets w/ my headphones blaring
Listening to my favorite rock bands
And sits alone in the park
Thinking and waiting to die
When ths kid goes home this kid
lock herself in her room and drown herself in music
Get her journal and write the way she feels
Her agony,sorrow,hate,revenge,depression.
This journal is the only one who
understands her and listening to her
Can you help this kid to be normal?happy?smile?
can you?

THINK

There is a saying..."try and tr until you die"
Like in a relationship..When you love a person
Sooner or later it will end up.
When someone leaves another one will arrive
And you start to fall in love again
love-leave-hurt-arrive-love
When these gets older and older
And you're doing it over and over again
Your heart is not active anymore to love
Because many people pass through it
and live it with pain
And now your heart is totally
wrecked,bruised,crashed and tortured
Now you think you don't want to fall in love again
and die!
Until you see another person again, and ask your self
Is this person gonna bring back the pieces of your heart?
Is this person gonna heal your broken heart?
Can this person fix your broken heart?
You'll see that when you found yourself
BLEEDING ON THE BATHROOM FLOOR!

WRONG PERSON

One day you send me a message
Sweet messages, that makes me smile
It's like you're saying that you like me and you have a feeling for me
But one night, i feel like im dying
Because of your hurtful words
That cause me to break down and cry
My heart is in great pain
You don't know how much you hurt me
It's like im your slave and torturing me
Did you know that i feel like i like you too?
I'm starting to ave a feelings for you
And then you come up with me and say that,,,
Those messages are wrong send?
And it suppose to be to my friend
And not for me.When i heard it from you
I feel like an idiot! I'm so stupid to listen to you
And all i have to do now is to go far away from you
And don't wanna see your face again
I want to forget you, erase your name and face to my memory
And be back to take some sweet revenge!

I DON'T DESERVE

Loving someone is great
Being loved by someone feels good
But love has always a bitter end
Love is a crime! it may cause of hate,revenge,violence,death and suicide
That's always what you think
When love is gone and come to an end
And now my tears starts to flow like a river
And i cut myself deeper and deeper
My visions are blurred because of my tears covering my eyes
I can't see anything clear, but i feel the pain
As i cut m wrist and feel the blood flowing through
I feel like there is no reason to live
So death is calling me now
My romantic coffin is waiting
I don't deserve love but
I deserve to die and feel the passion of fatal and poisonous love

my destiny!

As I lay here, all alone
Dying in a broken home
All the time I must've known
You'd break all the stitches sewn

The threads that held together my heart
You slowly began to pull apart
Though I didn't know it from the start
Dying inside must be my art

My wrists have been torn open wide
A slash for every time I've cried
Trying to drain the hurt inside
Another tale of suicide

Now you'll never realize
The beauty I saw in your eyes
And why I suddenly began to despise
Hearing the sound of my silent cries

I was just so sick of hearing him say
"It'll all be better one day!"
He can't be sure it'll be that way
Perhaps my life is doomed to grey

My vision's beginning to fade
As I glance towards the blade
On my skin where it's laid
And my destiny's been made

she's a mess..

my life was a mess!
all my life
i always feel pain
i cry every night
i attempt to cut my wrist
and die bleeding
but luckily
im still alive
nobody loves me for real
they always dump me and pushes me away
when others ask her
how she feels
she said its ok
even tough its not!!
she hides her feeling inside
w/ a great pain
her life was full of
hate and sorrow
and she wish
to die!